I used to think I am ugly. I also thought lots of other people were ugly. I thought certain aesthetics were super ugly. And places, too. It was an ugly time. In my teenage years I realized nothing is right and I will never have what I want because I don't get to be what I want and I didn't even know what that was. I was flailing, escaping, dancing, screaming. Doing all the things that teenagers do.

The sense of other stuck with me when I entered my twenties. I couldn't take anything seriously because everything felt like a game. I was studying what I thought I was supposed to be studying without harboring any intention to actually work in the field. I wasn't thinking. All I knew was that what I was doing was not what I wanted. I just did it because you're supposed to go study after school.

Parallel to my studies I signed up for my very first one-on-one course with a person: The Shamanic Witchcraft Apprenticeship with Gede Parma (now known as Fio). I wasn't playing anymore. Like with my previous studies in magic, which had all been book and text based, I went at it with a fervor. While my university studies felt like aimless dabbling, my magical studies had a purpose.

Everyday I practiced, I journaled, I went into the land, I spoke with the fates and with spirits, I dreamed of gods and found myself pulled into otherworlds. I divined and I channeled, I cast circles and I meditated. I went on trance journeys and I wrote everything down. I learned poetry by heart, how to do rituals for other people, and took many more courses.

But the details of it all is not what I am here to talk to you about. At least not today. I want to tell you about a profound side effect of my magical practices and studies. The thing is, you cannot practice magic in earnest without your perception and understanding of the world and yourself changing completely. Much has changed, and today I will share just one thing:

I can find beauty in everything and everyone and when I do this I enter into a profound sense of peace that is beyond what words can contain.

I'll be honest with you. I still judge. I definitely get turned off by things. That being said, when I come to my magic practice everyday, beauty reveals itself all around and within me. 

What feels special is that I am also able to accept and revel in my inherent beauty. Whatever the trends may be, however my body is changing, whatever flaws I can find, I see beauty in it all.

At Magic is Key we celebrate October as the month of beauty. In the Northern Hemisphere, where we are from, the world turns into the golden color of enchantment. Trees and ground are covered in the rich colors that will nourish growth in the year to come. Strong winds clear our minds and bring us to our senses. Come and celebrate with us by joining our membership. Every month you will receive a special Magic Workbook, a Magical Practice, and a Divination.